She is not like anyone else, she is different, she is special. For me she is like that first ray of sunshine in the morning or maybe that moment of the sunset called Golden Hour because it is completely bright and with both moments the sun is much more beautiful than during the rest of the day but nevertheless in those hours it is still beautiful. She brightens up my days but even on the days that she is not so well she has five minutes to bring out a smile in me, the kind she likes so much, that is her in my life.
Since she is in my life I feel that I am not the same. It is completely incredible how she changes the meaning of things and just when I think I am about to fall I see her next to me, in my life and almost everything makes sense again.
I always ask her: where have you been all this time? Her only answer is «eating bread in Turmero». The truth is that it is funny but it is a very sweet answer, just like she is. I think she is the coolest person I know and I can only be grateful that she has shown up, told me «chama», paid attention to me with my stories and lovingly noticed me too.
Maybe I am not perfect but my feelings for her are completely pure, genuine as we decided to call everything about us. I’m in love with her way of being, with her way of being with me, with how sweet she is when we have our romantic moments, when she’s itching, when she’s working, when she’s focused on her things, how detail-oriented she is about everything. God is the most detailed being in the world and I confess at this moment that this is a weakness for me.
Every day I try and really strive to be everything she deserves. I want her to have everything and be very, very, very happy. I want to heal things from my past so that I can belong to her in the present and in the future completely. I just don’t want to disappoint her with something or make her feel bad, I think that just breaks my heart a little bit and more when it’s something related to me. I honestly don’t know when I started to belong to her completely.
Probably for many things it will be very soon, I will not say no, but what I cannot deny is that I cannot stop imagining things in the near and long term future, I simply cannot. From being my girlfriend and meeting my family to forming our own family with a dog included, from going to a little beach in our country to getting to know the world (first London and Paris), from renting/buying a little apartment to having something bigger, meeting your goals, meeting my goals, creating and achieving the goals of both together.
In fact, many of the improvements in my life are driven by her, it feels very good, it feels very beautiful, in fact I am always speechless every time she expresses herself about me.
So what I want most in the world is to make her as happy or happier than she makes me. I know that not every day will be beautiful and happy, I know that, but the fact that so far in the sad ones she listens to me and in the bad ones we talk about it is one of the bases and in a personal way it is a motor for the decisions about the future of my life.
One of the few things I am clear about is that I love you in my life, you are the most incredible girl in the world. You deserve everything good and beautiful in life, you deserve much, much love and I hope I can give it to you and that you let me give it to you. I can think of so many things for us to do together that soon I will have to start writing down very seriously.
… you arrived, winning over every part of me, carefully and lovingly removing every little brick from the wall I had built. From a guest to a resident with papers in the world of my little head. Just being you, letting me be me and loving every part of me without judging it, without looking at the past, without seeing the bad but taking it all in, giving it love, accepting it and always getting the best version of me.
I want to be as free as I have been until now, I don’t want to hide you from anyone, I want them to know you and that you are my girlfriend, my support, my friend, my bro, my cardio UPS that didn’t go here gg. I want them to know that you make my days happy, that you give me a lot of love, that you are incredible and that you are everything.
Let’s add things up, let’s make BALANCE with our lives and let’s BREATHE in all the good and beautiful things that life puts in front of us.
I love you with every little part of my skin and with every beat of my heart.❤️